The missionaries are coming over today to give me a blessing. I feel like this is exactly what I need with all of the hormone issues I have been going through. I’ve prayed and asked for patience and while I have noticed a difference I still believe that there’s a missing piece here, and my last resort until I can get this Mirena out is to get a blessing.

I had such a wonderful at time at church today and it’s amazing what going there can do to my soul. I can be stressed out with a million things on my mind, and the minute I walk through those doors I feel this relief. Then when I walk out of those doors I feel motivated to strive hard at doing the best I can to follow the gospel. I think that’s why it’s so important for us to go to church every week, because it sets the tone for the following week. I miss church sometimes, and it always seems like the following week I have a horrible week. I’m not thinking straight, I don’t feel motivated to read my scriptures, which always make me feel good, or even pray.

I’m realizing that right now in my life I am struggling with something big within me. To feel stress and anxiety due to lack of necessity hormones in my body is wretched feeling. I sometimes lay in bed and cry, because I hate the way I’m acting. I hate the way I’m treating the people that I love and care for the most. My children need a mom with patience, it’s not fair. I know that they, especially Ella can feel my frustrations and I don’t like that.

I hope that this blessing will help me to hang in there until this all gets figured out.