I know all parents think this, but this isn’t all parents’ blog…. this is Jayden & Ella’s mom’s blog. So in my eyes, and in my world they are the best thing that God has put on this earth.
Parenting is so challenging and patience is such a hard thing to have, but tonight as I looked at my children I knew patience is the one thing they deserve more from me than anything else. Pregnant or not, hormonal or not, messy house or not…. these kids deserve patience. And patience is exactly what I’ve been lacking during this pregnancy.
Sometimes I really don’t feel like I’m the best mom. I know there’s no “best” mom out there, and compared to people who leave their children to go party, leave them at daycare all day while working just to pick them up and drop them off somewhere else, because they can’t handle them and would rather pawn them off onto someone else ~ I’m a heck of a lot better than that, but I’m just feeling sucky. Morning sickness really has a way of messing up your everything in life. The exhaustion of pregnancy makes you feel completely helpless, and have food aversions makes everything even worse.
But I have to remember, that I am a good mom. These kids are the entire center of my world and they are why I do everything I do in my life. I really hope that their memories of their childhood consists of good ones, and I’m making it my ultimate goal for them to remember their mom as an excellent mom.
While life has been a bit hard through this pregnancy, this too shall pass. My pregnancy with Ella wasn’t the easiest, and I actually threw up every day of it ~ but that’s not what I dwell on, and that’s not strong in Jayden’s memories.
~I love my children
when they’re sleeping soundly and life is calm and quiet,
I stare at them and pray to God to give me what my children need…
patience, love, understanding and faith
most of all faith.~
You are an excellent mom! I'm so excited you are adding to your family. 🙂 Your children are very lucky.
It seems so easy when they are sleeping, all peaceful and sweet…and then they wake up and it starts all over again.
oi…I resemble some of those working moms leaving kids at day care remarks… 😉
I think that parenting is something that is either natural or not natural, but regardless, it's something that needs to be done, and there are days that are going to be more stressful than others. You are a natural mother Amanda, as am I, and so therefore we take the bad with the feeling that that bad is in someway our fault or our doing, when really it's just life. I am not a perfect mom, but I am the right mom for my children, and that is all that matters. Yes, both my kids went to day care, and you know what? I never could have done the SAHM thing that you do and I admire you for doing it, because there is a part of me that wishes I had the patience and determination to do it. But I recognized this about myself a long time ago, and my kids are better for it. They both go to or have gone to, amazing enviornments with lots of love and teaching, and patience and FUN while I worked. When they are with me, I continue that because it's the most important thing.
Anyone reading this blog, or anyone that knows you, knows that your children are #1!! The pictures you post on here, and their presence in person is amazing and joyful and you know what? You and Gino did that!! So don't beat yourself up, you are pregnant, you have a life of your own, and you are going to have some days that are not great! Chin up mamacita, you are doing great and you are a wonderful mother, wife, daughter, sister and friend!!!
Love you lots!
You are one of my favorite moms ever! And you know I am a complete freak about how kids are treated so you know that is a big thing coming from me. You love your kids with all your heart and soul and you are giving them a faith foundation and there is nothing better than that.
Knowing that you're not having patience is the first step in solving it. Maybe try to set aside a specific hour each day (a different hour for each) and set aside something special you can do with just Ella or just Jayden. That works well for me…remember its quality of time more than quantity. I love you so much friend and am so proud of you!
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