I love Shell’s Pour Your Heart Out Wednesdays, because I am one that REALLY loves to pour her heart out on her blog. This week I’m dealing with something new and heartbreaking so here I go ~
A little over a week ago my little girl started to stutter. At first it would just be her repeating the first sound of the sentence over and over for a few times before she finally spit it out, but now it’s worse. She actually will open her mouth and have such difficulty getting the word out that she just attempts trying.
This mama is HEARTBROKEN! I pray HARD that this is just some phase she’s going through and she will outgrow it, and she won’t stutter for the rest of her life…. because my heart can’t handle her feelings getting hurt from the mean kids she’ll encounter.
I made her a doctor’s appointment, against everybody’s advice. Even my son’s speech therapist’s advice. Luckily I saw him at the park and snagged him for a little insight into his brain on what we’re going through. His main advice was patience, don’t put words in her mouth, basically just let her work on it on her own. But she struggles and all I want to do is help her slow it down and give her the word she’s trying to say.
Now here’s the downfall of parenting. You hurt when they hurt and the more kids you have I think the more hurt you’re going to have to feel! With having an SPD child I’ve hurt a lot. My heart has felt like it was literally stabbed when he comes home to tell me that some evil child has told him how weird he is. My heart has been stabbed as I’ve watched him with his beautiful manner at the age of 5 walk up to a kid to play with him and introducing himself as Jayden, while putting his hand out to shake it ~ only for that evil child to turn around and walk away from him.
I don’t want my kids to hurt more than general life already will make them hurt. I don’t want my daughter to come home crying because somebody made fun of her because no matter how hard she tried, she just couldn’t get that word out.
I’m taking Ella to the doctors even if it’s a waste of time and he tells me the exact same thing as the speech therapist told me, because I want to do everything I possibly can as early as I possibly can if this does indeed turn out to be a problem and not a phase.
Oh sweetie, I think you're doing the right thing. I'd take my child to the doctor too. At least you'll know you did all you could, you know? Even if he tells you the same thing as the therapist. Fingers are crossed for sweet Ella. She'll be just fine! xoxo
You are such a good mom! I am sure Ella is just learning how to find her voice and will out grow the stutter, but it doesn't hurt to go to the doctor. They are paid to listen and help so why not?
I would take her, too. Even if all you hear is the same thing you've already been told. Just to be extra cautious. I'm sorry for the pain your son has had to go through.
I had to put Zoe in speech therapy because of her "lazy tongue" as I called it. Zoe had stigmatism and a full Interdental Lisp. She had speech therapy from Kindergarten until 4th grade, and I'm praying that someday, maybe braces may help her, because she still has it, although it's slight. As someone that has a slight lisp and HATES it as an adult, I can sympathize with you wanting to get her the help she should get. You and Gino are great parents, looking out for her, and you're not alone in this.