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100 Things About ME!

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1. I have 2 beautiful childen
2. I have a baby in heaven
3. I have 1 brother and 4 sisters
4. In my heart I only have 1 sister
5. I have 1 nephew and 1 niece from my 1 brother & 1 sister from my mom
6. I went to a boarding school when I was 12
7. That boarding school was a Scientology boarding school
8. I loved that boarding school and it was my choice to go
9. I went to a Mormon reform facility in Provo when I was 14
10. I really was a little out of control and needed to go there
11. After I graduated from the program I lived with my counselor in Provo for a while
12. I got married in Lake Tahoe, NV
13. Yes, it was in a casino
14. That casino was Caesars and it was a BEAUTIFUL wedding
15. I was married May 15, 2004
16. I played the flute in junior high
17. I used to make my sister & brother pay to come in my room
18. I made tickets and sold them to them for .01 each
19. I got in trouble when they outed me
20. I’m a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints
21. I have not always been an active member of this church
22. I married a non-member of this church
23. I know someday my husband will be a member
24. I love to digiscrap
25. I’m addicted to massages
26. I don’t have a shoe obsession
27. When I moved out with my husband I didn’t know how to cut meat
28. I didn’t know how to cook either
29. I have broken both of my wrists
30. I have lived with my aunt
31. I LOVE chick flicks and cry over all of them
32. I was not a military kid
33. I grew up without a dad
34. I now live by my dad and still have no relationship with him
35. A year ago I relocated with my little family to start our own roots
36. I love pink
37. I have a daughter with Wolf-Parkinson White syndrome, which is a heart defect
38. On 10/5/07 I almost lost my daughter
39. I heart Hazelnut Lattes
40. I love accounting
41. I have an aunt that is only 4 years older than me
42. My mom is only 15 1/2 years older than me
43. I have Cuban Puerto Rican children
44. I have natural red hair
45. I have blue eyes
46. I’ve never had a tan
47. I ended up doing home school for my last 2 years of high school
48. I regret that decision
49. I moved 10 times during elementary school & junior high
50. Through all those moves I always had the same best friend
51. After 22 years, we’re still best friends
52. One year for Halloween I was a dead Raider’s cheerleader
53. I LOVE the Oakland Raiders
54. I LOVE the Sacramento Kings
55. I have a picture of me with one of the owners of the Sacto Kings
56. I played softball when I was 11
57. I sometimes listen to country
58. I’m tired of American Idol and didn’t watch it this year
59. I’m obsessed with Grey’s Anatomy, Desperate Housewives & Brothers & Sisters
60. Oh yeah, and Gossip Girl
61. I have a husband who is obsessed with these shows with me
62. I work at home
63. I still don’t own my own home
64. I have my California Real Estate License
65. I love mineral makeup
66. I use Burt’s Bees products – including their shampoo & conditioner
67. I used to write a lot of poetry
68. I really don’t like going to the movies
69. My favorite restaurant is Olive Garden
70. I wouldn’t have moved here if they didn’t have an Olive Garden
71. I hate sea food – if it comes out of the water I don’t eat it
72. I’ve had to call 911 due to my baby choking
73. A couple of weeks later my son choked
74. I have a husband that saved both of them
75. I started a fire playing with matches when I was 7
76. I had a New Kids on the Block sleeping bag
77. I have a 5 generation picture
78. My son has a 5 generation picture
79. I still have 5 generations alive in my family
80. I got braces at the age of 21
81. I had them on for almost 4 years
82. My “I” teeth do not exist and have bridges in their place
83. I love to read
84. I’ve never had a car payment
85. I drive fast
86. I’ve been to Mexico
87. I’ve never been to the East Coast
88. I love the ocean
89. I got bit by a dog and it almost took my eye out
90. I have a scar from it on my eyebrow
91. I used to make my garage a skating ring when I was younger
92. I lost a baby half way through my pregnancy
93. I still think Tupac is alive
94. I think he’s in Cuba
95. I was 19 when I had my son
96. I was 25 when I had my daughter
97. I was 21 when I got married
98. I don’t like BBQ sauce
99. I dip everything in ranch and ketchup
100.I’m a leo ~ hear me roar LOL

My UFO Experience

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Great! I’m never showing my face at my husband’s work EVER again! He’s told one of his friend’s at work a story about me that’s kinda embarrassing and his friend told another person and that person told another person and when Gino was leaving for work yesterday his boss said, “Make sure your wife doesn’t get abducted by an alien tonight.” and laughed.

It was in 2005 and it was night. My backyard had a big tree and the night sky was BLACK. I was out back with the dog and I looked up into the sky and there was a UFO hovering over my house. I panicked. I didn’t know what to do. I wanted to grab the dog and Jayden and get in the car and leave, but I didn’t see the point since the UFO could easily follow us. If it was going to abduct us it was going abduct us no matter where we were.

Gino was at his friend Justin’s house playing Madden. I called in a panic explaining to my husband that there’s a UFO over our house and I don’t know what to do. I’m crying at this point. Gino sat on the phone speechless, because this is really kinda out there. I mean come on, how would you react if your other called you freaking out over something so random and weird So, they are just in shock and I hear Justin say in the background, “Dude, wtf is wrong with her?” After I convince Gino that there really is a UFO above our house he’s about ready to come home until I say. “Oh, wait a minute. Nevermind! It’s just one of those blimp things.”

I will probably be made fun of for the rest of my life.

No more IUD for the sake of my sanity

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After having a completely emotional day I think I’ve come to a decision that might just save my sanity. I really have loved the Mirena, but I’m turning into someone I don’t even like. My husband actually said to me today that he doesn’t even like to come home on his lunch break anymore because I’m just snapping at him over everything. He compared me to the sister on the movie Knocked Up… she treats her husband like s*%$ I had a hysterical fit today where I sat in the bathroom sobbing. Over NOTHING. I picked apart everything I could on my husband. That’s not okay. This isn’t me. Of course I have my times of being moody, but this is scary. So as I’m sitting in the bathroom crying it dawns on me that what if these hormones I’m taking are completely screwing up my brain? What happens when I completely lose it? That’s when you draw the line. I’d rather have another kid than feel the way I feel.

I’ve wondered before if maybe it’s PPD, but I don’t think it is. Especially since my hormone levels are so drastically low. I have to have faith that everything will end up back to normal and I will be okay. My kids don’t deserve to have a mom with no patience. Instead of being on anti-anxiety medication and hormones I think I’m going right to the source and having them rip that stupid Mirena out.

If you pray, please pray for me. I’m going to ask the missionaries to come over and give me a blessing on Friday. I also am going to get a massage tomorrow, and that should really help. If you pray, please pray for me. I hate feeling like this. I don’t want to drive my husband away being a naggy wife. I’ve never been naggy. I’ve never been snappy with Jayden and I’m catching myself being like that with him. Jayden is my heart and soul and I’m so over protective over him and here I am being mean. That’s not cool.

I think for birth control I might go back on the ring, which is what I was taking before I got pregnant with Mya. My insurance company is just going to LOVE this. I just fought tooth & nail to get that $850.00 thing paid for. Now I’m taking it out LOL.

**I updated my Book of Mormon Blog

My husband thinks I have claws…

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Yesterday we went to Jayden’s TBall game and as I was driving the sun was beating into my car. (Mental note – MUST GET WINDOWS TINTED THIS YEAR!) Anyways… the sun made me think about how I forgot the sunscreen. So, I make the comment of “Great! I’m going to look like a tomato by the end of the game.” My ever so loving husband actually had the nerve to say, “Um, I like to use the term lobster. You’ll look like a lobster. You know, because the lobsters have claws.” He looked at me and actually put his fingers up and clamped them together.

Lovely.

I thought this sign was hilarious.

Ramblings On Me

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It’s the stake conference at church today and we’re not going. I really did want to go, but I really didn’t want to make Jayden sit through that for 2 hours. Not to mention, 1 hour of Sacrament meeting with Ella is hard enough, 2 hours is unthinkable. I am sad though that I’m missing out on all of the great talks they’ll be having today.

Lately, I’ve been struggling with this whole hormone issue that I’m having. I’ve lost all patience and I know that it’s effecting my family. Yesterday I freaked out on Gino for the mere fact that he didn’t get Jayden’s new fish aquarium ready the prior day so that we could go get the fish. Then I freaked out because Ella was whining and I needed a break. He chose to go and get the fish aquarium ready instead of take Ella and that made me even more mad. That is psychotic. I’m flipping over the stupidest things and I just want to feel normal again. This was all on his lunch break, which he should have been able to come home and relax, instead he had to deal with his hormonal wife. I did end up taking Gaba Ease as soon as he left and it was like a reformation…. you’d think I was bipolar.

I’m on day 2 of taking my progesterone, and I think I might feel a little bit different today. Gino’s been playing GTA4 all morning, and I’m not feeling the normal fury that I do feel when he plays. So, we just might be having some progress here.

I don’t want to get irritated with everyone the way I have been. I want the patience that my family deserves, and I hope that we all see a difference in me soon. If these progesterone pills don’t change the way I’ve been, then I’m probably going to have to make the decision to take out the Mirena IUD. I’d hate to do that, because at this point I don’t want to be prone to having any more kids. I’m not very good at taking other forms of birth control, and an oops baby just wouldn’t work.

I think today I might need to do some major scripture reading and prayer. Going to church always makes me feel so much better, but since we don’t have that today I need to do some personal scripture study. That probably means that the BOM blog will be updated today.

Resentment

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I go to pick up Jayden every day from school. There’s a little girl that walks up to me daily and hugs me as she walks to her class from lunch and I can’t even look her in the eye. I’m 25 years old and she’s only 9. As she walks up to me to hug me I try to pretend like she doesn’t exist. I know this is an iniquity, and something that I probably should really pray about, but I honestly can’t help myself.

This little girl was never abandoned and I was. This little girl has had her daddy all of her life, and I have not. I wouldn’t say I’m jealous, but I resent. I resent a 9 year old and I’m coming out and saying it.

For the past 2 seasons, I’ve watched on Grey’s Anatomy Meredith’s relationship with her little sister. It’s the exact same situation as mine. We see little glances of hope that Meredith might actually accept Lexi, and we all have sortof grown to love this quirky character Lexi has, but then Meredith backs away and her guard against her little sister just doesn’t budge. I wonder if I’ll ever be able to accept this little girl who had my dad as her daddy. I know it’s not her fault, but I just can’t help the way I feel.

Do you have the Mirena IUD?

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This is a different works for me post. I figured that this is a good way to put a word out there on people out there with the IUD Mirena. I first off must say that I have really loved it! My periods are so light and I’ve been told that they may even stop all together, BUT! They say that there are no side effects. That your ovaries will still do what your ovaries are supposed to do. That is a big fat FALSE!! I got my IUD put in on 10/1/2007. A few months ago I started having anxiety attacks and I’ve been more irritable than I’ve ever been in my life. This was so out of control that I actually got a prescription to Xanax and then eventually tried Gaba Ease, which I must say has helped immensely. So part of my works for me is Gaba Ease. If you have irritation due to hormones, anxiety or stress this is a natural supplement that has shocked me with it’s magical powers.

Okay, I’m getting to the point of the whole IUD spill. I was such an emotional/hormonal wreck that I called the doctors. I had hormone testing done and I went in yesterday for my results. The “women’s” doctor’s office that I go to does research and they’re starting to recognize that what I’m about to tell you happens to a lot of people that have Mirena. My progesterone levels were at a .47! I’m a 25, non-pregnant female and my levels should be in the 5’s. Having such low progesterone levels has dropped my estrogen levels down to a 58…. I have numbers like someone in menopause! No wonder I’ve been a batty psycho case. I’m so relieved that this can all be corrected by taking a progesterone pill (which I start tomorrow!!) to fix this, because I was getting ready to pack my bags and move out for the sake of my family.

So, if you have Mirena and you sometimes feel really foggy in your head or you just downright know that you are about one flipout away from a nice hospital visit (okay I really wasn’t that bad) then go get your hormones checked!!! And if you have stress/anxiety in your life then order some Gaba Ease….. because it really works for me!

Thank you so much for joining me for this week’s edition of Works for Me Wednesday ~

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Answered Prayers

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Do you ever stop to think about the prayers that God has answered for you? Maybe even the ones he hasn’t.

On Sunday morning at about 3am or somewhere around there I woke up with the worst pain I had ever felt in my right kidney. I thought I was going to die. I at that point resorted to a 6 year old child and immediately called my mommy crying. Her words were go right to the hospital you are having a kidney stone. My husband gets the kids in the car and my pain immediately stops. It was kinda creepy. I went to bed and woke up in the morning feeling kindof like I had a bladder infection. I wasn’t insanely miserable, but I was uncomfortable. It didn’t feel like a normal bladder infection – it just didn’t feel right. Monday morning I woke up after having dreams of having a miserable bladder infection to complete and utter pain. Not in my kidney but in my bladder area. I thought I was going to die again. It was 6am and my doctor’s office didn’t open until 8am. For two hours I complained and moaned and cried. I didn’t know what else to do – I finally prayed and begged for Heavenly Father to PLEASE take my pain away until I could get to the doctors. I couldn’t bare it anymore. Not even 30 minutes after my prayer I had no pain. I made it to the doctors and was informed that I had a lot of blood in my urine and the put me on some antibiotics. If the pain comes back they want me in to do a CT Scan of my kidneys and see if there are indeed stones in there. I have had mild cramping off and on, but no more pain. I have no one to thank other than my loving, wonderful Heavenly Father.

So, this got me thinking about prayers. We go to him and sometimes he answers and sometimes he doesn’t. I can remember praying my heart out when my heart was broken as a young girl. Asking why this happened to me. I thought he wasn’t answering my prayers when in fact he was. During my heart break he gave me my true soul mate. Gino. I really believe that some way or another our prayers do get answered. Sometimes not in the way we want at that moment, but in the way that they are supposed to be. I know my prayers are answered a lot, and a lot of times I don’t even realize it when it’s the small things. But I noticed the minute my pain disappeared on Monday that he was there. He knew that I needed Him, and he helped me. I am so thankful for Him.

On another note – I updated my Book of Mormon Blog FINALLY! I would like some input on 1 Nephi Chapter 8 if you would be so kind to read it and give me your input over on my BOM Blog. Thank you!!!

Will this overwhelming feeling go away??

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Do you ever get an overwhelming feeling deep inside, yet you have no clue where it’s coming from? I feel utterly overwhelmed. It might be because I got so far behind on my work and I cannot stand having work to do built up. I’m so tempted to stay up all night sorting through papers and doing things of dire importance, but honestly where is that going to get me? NO WHERE! I’ll be exhausted for tomorrow and then things will only get worse. I think the best thing to do in this situation is…………………………………………………….. TAKE A BATH, RELAX, READ A BOOK & GO TO BED! And that is exactly what I’m going to do.

Tomorrow is a momentous day for me. If you know me you know that no matter how hard I try to keep up on things (housekeeping) I always fail. Even with the wonderful Flylady, she honestly does work, but only if I stick with it. Lately, my work and kids keep me so busy that I don’t even have much time for the Flylady. Tomorrow a house keeper is coming into my home to scrub it down from top to bottom and I’m ecstatic. I met with her today and I absolutely LOVE her! She’s so sweet and Ella even loved her. My goal is to only need her 2 days/week. I think that this overwhelming feeling burrowing inside of me will dwindle away as I put my feet up in a very clean home, with my work done. Yes, tomorrow I’m going full fledged, people. I’m putting in a full 8 hours and at the end of the day I will have a smile on my face and hopefully the best sleep of my life.

In the meantime – Twilight here I come.

Holy Crazy Family Time!

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For the past few weeks it’s been nothing but visiting, visiting and MORE visiting. I know I’m ignoring my blog, but I honestly have been so busy! As mentioned before we went to Sacramento for Easter. Then the day after we got back Gino’s family showed up and stayed for 6 days. 2 days after they left my Grandma showed up and is still here and then today Gino’s BFF Dave showed up. So in the midst of all this visiting my blog is getting ignored.

However! Here’s a few updates going on in our world:

Rylie May is home and doing wonderful! She’s so little and makes Ella look like a toddler. I still have no pictures, but will post some as soon as I take some.

Ella is pulling herself up onto any and everything and has even thought she could walk and fell on her face. Everyday I swear this little girl is growing more and more and not just physically, but smarter. She is one smart little cookie. The other day Gino and I were walking out the door and said “Be Back” and I swear she said in her little voice “Be Back”. I thought I heard it and didn’t say anything, and then Gino stops and turns around and then his aunt says, “OMG! Did you hear that?!?!” We continually tried and tried to get her to say it again, but of course nope.

Jayden just went back to school after being on spring break. It’s been a hard adjustment for us all, but we’re managing. One of his front teeth is loose. With every tooth he loses I feel more and more like my baby is growing up too fast. UGH – he’s almost 7!!! I cannot fathom the thought that Jayden will be 7 this year.

Gino’s new schedule has actually been working out for us. I’ve grown to love it and now they’re ripping it from us. I HATE HOME DEPOT MORE THAN ANYTHING! Now he’ll be working the original shift he was supposed to get. 4am-1pm…. UGH! My poor husband will now be waking up at 3:15am – and poor me will have to drag Ella out in the morning to drop off Jayden at school. We’ll manage. We will manage.

I haven’t gone to curves in 2 weeks. 2 fricken weeks! I have to make a promise to myself that Monday morning at 10am I will back in there. Because not only am I not going to Curves, but I’m also not eating as healthy as I was before going to Sacramento.

I know I told how I’d have my Tips back this week, but with my Grandma here they completely slipped my mind! So, I’m not going to guarantee that they’ll be back on Tuesday, because we will probably be busy with fun tax stuff, but I will try my hardest!

Last, but not least – I’ve started back up My Book of Mormon Journey. Head over to my other blog and join me in reading the Book of Mormon. I’m only 5 chapters into it, which will take you no time at all. Even if you’re not LDS, what would it hurt to read about it?? I post links to the chapters so you can read online. And I would love all comments over there with your opinions, feeling and things that will not only help me see things the way you do, but help strengthen my testimony as well as yours. I love hearing other’s testimonies, because I believe that mine grows stronger.