Oh Hi! And BIG NEWS!

I make a comeback to my blog bearing news. I’ve stayed offline for a while due to the fact that my computer makes me sick.  It’s really hard to look at the screen.  And if you’re not on my facebook, you missed the announcement yesterday where I told everybody that I am 10 weeks pregnant. And devastatingly sick with morning sickness. I even checked myself into the hospital last Wednesday for a couple bags of much needed fluids, and left with a much needed prescription to Zofran.

While I’ve been gone from internet land I’ve been keeping a mental note of things that I need to blog. And at the top of that list is Jayden’s baptism. So, I’m working on that post and might even get it up tonight. Here’s a little low down of what’s been going on in my world…..

We spent last weekend on the Oregon Coast. We even had a beautiful room w/a jacuzzi tub on the balcony overlooking the ocean. It was a much needed mini vacation ~ and it was a total relaxation trip so not one beach picture was taken!

A man that has been in my life and actually gave me away at my wedding, a man that stood as the only father figure (in a weird sense) in my life passed away last week. A blog post on this is in the works.

Honestly… other than the above, nothing exciting has really gone on here. Gino has taken the word rockstar husband to a whole new level and has pretty much stepped in as the mother/housewife around these parts since I’ve been feeling so crappy. I’m hoping that in 2 weeks when the 2nd trimester starts that the morning sickness goes away and that I get some energy……. oh how I really, REALLY miss energy.

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I’m gonna ramble here

I’m here to ramble. To get how I feel out, so I don’t drive people crazy with it later ~ you’re more than welcome to stick around and hear me out 🙂


I think it’s kind of been hitting me lately that I’m not pregnant. Especially when I hear about other people expecting. It almost stabs me in the heart a bit, because I SHOULD BE THERE! I should be struggling with morning sickness, getting close to little flutters in my stomach. Dang it! I’m sad.


I feel so torn, because while I’d love to jump right back into the TTC action, I know that there’s a couple of things that need to be taken care of first.  

  • I need to get my hormones checked.  I really feel like my progesterone issues that I had with the Mirena might have had a little something to do with losing this baby.  SO I have to go in and get my hormones all checked and make sure that I’m okay in that department.
  • Next… I REALLY want to lose some weight before getting pregnant again.  I don’t want to go into this pregnancy unhealthy, so if I could drop even 20 lbs before getting pregnant I’d be THRILLED…. if I lost a bit more I wouldn’t be too sad about that.
  • I want to get finished with my Unfinished Business list.



Then I can make a baby ~ when it does happen though I think we’ll keep it to ourselves for a while ~ because if we have a repeat I dread telling people.

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7 Weeks Down… 33 To Go

My due date’s a little confusing. If you go off of my LMP it would 8/20/10. If you go off of my ultrasound it would be 8/26/10. So, for now I’m just going to go off of my 8/26/10 due date. The funny thing is, Ella’s due date according to my LMP was 8/19/07 and according to her u/s it was 8/25/07. I wonder if this little soul might be her long lost twin knockin on the door LOL.


Here’s a little picture I took today. It really shows how much I’m really showing already.



Being that this is my 4th pregnancy I guess that’s why I’m showing so early.


I talked earlier this week (actually like 2 days ago) that I my morning sickness had set in. Well, ever since I’ve posted that it’s actually kinda been non existent. If I smell something gross I could most definitely throw up… but thank Goodness these past 2 days I haven’t felt nauseas at all!


Reality is really setting in that there is indeed a little baby inside of me. I’m trying to have positive thoughts and think about how wonderful it will be when I finally see this precious little soul’s face. But I’m not going to lie. I’m scared TO DEATH! Not about bringing this baby into this world, about the possibility of not bringing this baby into this world.  


Today I learned about a fellow blogger that I was just talking to on twitter 2 days ago about how she really wanted a baby girl, because she already has 3 boys!  We were talking about morning sickness… I remember how bad my morning sickness was with not only Mya, but with Ella as well.  I threw up with both of them.  She found out at her big ultrasound yesterday that her baby was no longer alive.  She was 18 weeks.  I was 18 weeks 4 days when I lost Mya.  It is reality that a beautiful blessing can be ripped from you.  It’s not fair.  I don’t understand, I can’t grasp it, but I dread it.  I dread EVER having to go through what I went through that horrible September 5th. 


My little rainbow baby came though.  She came and filled my heart in a way that I didn’t know could filled.  She eased the pain, when I thought nothing could.  I found my blessing in my tragedy.


With my experience I know now to treasure what I have a little bit more.  I know to be thankful for every day that I have life inside of me, because there’s no better feeling.  There’s no better blessing.


7 weeks down 33 more to go.   


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Worked for YOU Wednesday…. Morning Sickness

I LOVE asking for advice…. and this week at {We Are THAT Family}, Works for Me Wednesday is all about asking what works for other’s…


SO! I should have planned more, because now I sit here twirling my hair wondering what in the world I need help on.


I GOT IT!


I’m recently pregnant… I’ll be 7 weeks along on Thursday and I just started Morning Sickness…. not very happy about this.  Today is day 2 of having to run to toilet.  YUCK!


So. Here’s where you can help me. What in the world helped you with this? I have preggo pops and those help some, but I’d love other advice.

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