What do you do when the one person who has continually done you wrong over and over again is in a desperate need for help. For love. For someone to just take him in and love him and help him feel secure? My first thoughts were definitely to turn my back and continue living the life I’ve been living. This is my happy land.
But at the end of the day, when I lay up in my bed at night, I still see that sweet little boy’s face. The one who tried to runaway on his dirt bike when he was only 4. The one who used to twirl with us girls, wearing one of my sister’s dresses. At the end of the day he’s still just my baby brother. I can’t have my baby brother helpless with no one or no where to go.
It’s going to cause problems, and that makes me sad, but it’s something I have to do. I have to do what’s right and turning my head to him isn’t. I couldn’t imagine being in the situation that he’s in right now. Helpless. Not knowing what to do. Not having a soul in the world that’s willing to let you in. I will be that soul that will open up my door, and this HAS to be the last time. He HAS to get his life on track.
My brother will be arriving here tomorrow. My life as I know it will change, but I’m going to stay positive. The positive outlooks on this will help me get through this. He needs his big sister. I love this boy so much, and he needs me ~ so I will be there for him. He has a job with my father waiting for him and this just could be the one thing that makes Mitch grow up. Become responsible. Learn to live an honest, faithful, true life.
Sadly, my niece will not be coming with him. Right now, it’s Mitch time. It time for Mitch to get it together, then hopefully he can have his family back together if that’s what Corina and Him want. For the sake of Alana, I really wish they would try. I would LOVE to get Corina up here going to church with me. Shockingly, Mitch is going to be going to church. I’m proud of him for that. If he doesn’t like it we won’t force him, but he has to at least give it a chance.
With many deep breaths, Xanax & blog entries, we will survive.
Oh, honey, I so feel for you….. I will be praying for you and for your brother. I have a brother that is 3 1/2 years older than me… and yes, even at our age there are still struggles… I love him so very much, yet there are things in his life that only God can fix. … I don’t know if your brother is a Christian, but I will pray that he will accept Christ, that he will let Him come in and take control of his life.. for you.. that God will give you the wisdom of Solomon in dealing with your brother, for your family that He will protect and not allow trouble to come between you and them… and the list will continue as He leads….
hugs in Christ,
Marcia