I’m still pretty much in shock at what happened with Ella. I really feel like it’s given me a different outlook on my life. I’ve stopped fretting the small stuff, and while I know this won’t last a long time, I sortof hope it does.

The other day while we were driving Ella dumped popcorn all over her, the next day it was lemonade. Before I’d be so frustrated and dwell on this, that it would effect me. Now it doesn’t. It’s not that big of a deal that I’m going to have to clean something up ~ thank God she’s here so I can have something to clean up. What would my life be like if she wasn’t? I’d probably be praying for her to spill that popcorn a million times if I could just get one more smile, one more hug, one kiss.

I promise the depressing posts will stop soon, but for now I’m lavishing in the fact that my daughter is okay.

I’m going to say that I don’t blame myself for what happened, because I honestly did not expect her to get up on the counter and get her medicine, but the fact that it was me who put that medicine on the counter puts a little bit of a blame on my shoulder. I’m not going to dwell on it, I’m going to use this as a learning experience. I’ve learned that bad things can happen to my kids, and unfortunately all it takes is a couple of seconds and they could be fighting for their lives. This scares me. Life is so scary. I hope that my story will help other moms out there realize that it can happen to you.

On a completely different note…. I’m announcing something that’s coming to Garibay Soup from 7/23/09-7/25/09 ~ it’s a Happy BlogNerd Bash! It’s happy, because my birthday is 7/24/09 and it’s BlogNerd, because it’s for us nerds that aren’t able to make it to Blogher this year.

Stay tuned for more details and a button to share on your blog 🙂 Also feel free to start tweeting and sharing the word that Happy Blognerd is coming to Garibay Soup 7/23/09-7/25/09 ~ if you don’t follow me on Twitter you can do so {HERE}