Life is short. Boy is it ever so short. I talked on my blog a while back about my problems with my IUD and how I was going through hormone testing and the Nurse Practitioner that I was seeing was WONDERFUL. She was so nice, layed back, took the time to hear you out. I loved her! I just found out that in April she fell and slipped into a coma… and she never came out of it. Just like that, a wonderful person gone from this world.
Today is a little girl that will just melt your heart’s 2nd birthday. However, she’s not here to celebrate it. I’ve seen her pictures all over people’s blog and waited until today to finally head over to her mom’s blog and get to know sweet Maddie. Oh my goodness….. I sat here tonight reading her mom’s letter to her today and cried and cried and hugged my babies. One day she was here, the next day she was gone. Life is so short. And Maddie’s story really makes you stop, think and appreciate every moment that you are given with your babies.
To read all about Maddie… go {HERE} for her mama’s blog or {HERE} for her Daddy’s blog. I waited a really, really long time to suck it up and cry with them… but I’m so happy I did. I hope you too will go and become a friend of Maddie… she’ll melt your heart.
I have been so close to losing Ella, that stories like these crush me. I’ve been there…. I’ve actually sat there hearing them call codes on my little girl. At one point I thought she was gone… I know what it’s like to drop to your knees and pray that your baby won’t die…. and I’m so fortunate to still have her here. I can’t imagine what not only Heather & Mike (Maddie’s Mama & Daddy) but all of the parents in this world that have had to suffer the heart wrenching loss of a child have had to go through… and still go through every, single day.
My heavy heart can go on and on. I feel like I’m mourning a sister. I haven’t unleashed the drama that’s been going on, but I’ve decided to break my silence and talk about how I feel. My sister has turned into somebody that I do not like. Somebody who talks disgustingly and someone that I am ashamed to say is my sister. My sister wouldn’t act the way she’s been acting. But in the end I think I’ve learned something that I’ve always known. You turn into who you hang around. So, it’s so vital that you choose to hang around people that inspire you, challenge you to grow, and have virtue, values & morals. Because if you choose to hang out with anything less, unfortunately you will be less. I am in mourning, because things that have been said can’t be taken back. I have been challenging myself to personal growth, and during personal growth you need to ensure that you are not surrounded by people who hold you back, live negatively and have no virtue, values or morals, because the last thing you want to do is turn into them.
Life is short though, and I’m sad to say that I’ve had to accept the fact that my sister and my brother are both individuals that will always be stuck in their rut. Living a life that is not something to be proud of, and until they accept this and learn and grow from this they’ll never change. They will continue to always be hustling their way through life. A life without honesty, a life without morals…. it’s so unfortunate. But I have to remember that in order for me to continue with my personal growth I have to stay away from them. I have to look at the negativity they hold, the hate they hold, the evil they hold in them and pray for them. My brother is not someone that has ever had good in him. I’ve been through it all with him, and honestly feel quite secure in not being in his life. Anybody who can walk away from their own flesh & blood child and deny them is evil. My sister, however, I’ve always loved her. It’s unfortunate what’s happened, but I’m okay with it now. Yes, Jessica, I do check your myspace status, because I want to see how my niece and nephew are doing. The things you put on there lets the ghetto and trash in you shine on. I wish we could mend this crap we’re going through, but I’ve realized since it’s started that you are not a person that I want in my world… and fortunately I get to choose who’s in my world. I choose class, virtue, morals, and people striving to better themselves, which are things you don’t hold. I hope one day you learn how to.
My heart is heavy, but at the end of the day I have a wonderful husband that makes me happier than I ever thought possible. A son that never fails to put a smile on my face and warm my heart and a daughter that is and always will be my rainbow after the storm. My heart is heavy, but I love every thing I have in my life. I feel fortunate to have the blessings that continue to pour down on my family. I will continue to keep my prayers with those in this world that truly need it….. and I will continue to send my balloons to the people in heaven like Mya, my precious daughter who will always have a huge piece of my heart with her, Maddie, who has touched a world of people with her beautiful eyes and smile, and Karen… my nurse who woke up one day and didn’t know it was going to be her last.
I'm sorry to hear about your nurse.
I have read the Spohr's blogs since long before Maddie passed, and when she died I mourned with them, although I can't even imagine how terrible it was for them.
I'm so sorry about what's going on with your family. You are in my prayers.
Holy. You write novels TOO!
I met Heather I think once… I've never really dared lurk too much on her site.. not sure why??
And to hear your stories about near loss like that.. wow.. going to go do the dishes and think about how lucky my world is. even though being single this whole past week has SUCKED… everyone is healthy and happy and all that.
Dude I know exactly about the whole sibling thing, unfortunately. My brother has changed SOOO MUCH and i dont like the person that he is now.
Happy Birthday Maddie, sweet sweet angel
**hugs**
boy can i relate to all this about your sister and brother. and we all miss maddie.
I am sorry about what has happened with your family Amanda. 🙁