My due date’s a little confusing. If you go off of my LMP it would 8/20/10. If you go off of my ultrasound it would be 8/26/10. So, for now I’m just going to go off of my 8/26/10 due date. The funny thing is, Ella’s due date according to my LMP was 8/19/07 and according to her u/s it was 8/25/07. I wonder if this little soul might be her long lost twin knockin on the door LOL.
Here’s a little picture I took today. It really shows how much I’m really showing already.
Being that this is my 4th pregnancy I guess that’s why I’m showing so early.
I talked earlier this week (actually like 2 days ago) that I my morning sickness had set in. Well, ever since I’ve posted that it’s actually kinda been non existent. If I smell something gross I could most definitely throw up… but thank Goodness these past 2 days I haven’t felt nauseas at all!
Reality is really setting in that there is indeed a little baby inside of me. I’m trying to have positive thoughts and think about how wonderful it will be when I finally see this precious little soul’s face. But I’m not going to lie. I’m scared TO DEATH! Not about bringing this baby into this world, about the possibility of not bringing this baby into this world.
Today I learned about a fellow blogger that I was just talking to on twitter 2 days ago about how she really wanted a baby girl, because she already has 3 boys! We were talking about morning sickness… I remember how bad my morning sickness was with not only Mya, but with Ella as well. I threw up with both of them. She found out at her big ultrasound yesterday that her baby was no longer alive. She was 18 weeks. I was 18 weeks 4 days when I lost Mya. It is reality that a beautiful blessing can be ripped from you. It’s not fair. I don’t understand, I can’t grasp it, but I dread it. I dread EVER having to go through what I went through that horrible September 5th.
My little rainbow baby came though. She came and filled my heart in a way that I didn’t know could filled. She eased the pain, when I thought nothing could. I found my blessing in my tragedy.
With my experience I know now to treasure what I have a little bit more. I know to be thankful for every day that I have life inside of me, because there’s no better feeling. There’s no better blessing.
7 weeks down 33 more to go. 
Huge hug. I can't even imagine what you've been through with that, but wanted to offer up a hug
Congrats! I have found the first 12 weeks can be back and forth on the belly because of bloating. Such a pain! LOL You will do great! Think positive! I know it's so hard. But we can't let our own losses and other's losses scare us into not loving every minute of it. I had to learn that myself. Can't wait to read more about your pregnancy.
I like your countdown. I feel the same way as you do sometimes and have to remind myself to be positive. I'm so sorry to hear about your friend. What a dreadful horrible thing to happen to her and to you and Mya. Many hugs and happy thoughts directed your way.
Julie (sorry don't know much about this commenting business on blogs so hopefully it works this way.)
Tons and tons of hugs and positive thoughts sweetie. I'm pulling for you all the way!
I am so excited for you, being pregnant is wonderful! It is from our terrible times that we really enjoy the good. I know that for me it is the best when I can feel them moving.
**Hugs** I can see how what happened this week would re-awake those feelings. I know it's easier said than done, but try to have positive thoughts and look forward to this pregnancy! Can't wait to see your belly and the new baby grow!! (oh and my edd based on my lmp and the first u/s are almost exactly like yours! I thought based on lmp it would be 3/26 but u/s showed 4/2… we'll see!)
Honey you are adorable!! I <3 your baby belly…just so sweet. I am saying prayers for you and your little one…I know after having a loss myself how hard, scary and emotional pregnancy can be–but you have an amazing outlook and so many prayers coming for you! {{hugs and belly rubs}}