Something you have to forgive YOURSELF for
I left the medicine without a childproof cap on the counter.
I left the medicine on the counter that almost took my daughter’s life a little over a year ago on the flipping counter.
Why didn’t I put it up high where she had no access to it?
I still have days where I look at her and just have to grab her and hug her and thank God for not taking her from me. I still have days where I think about the look that was on her face when I thought she was dead and I can’t help but cry.
I almost killed my daughter by a very scary mistake. And I hold this horrible pain and guilt inside of me because of it. I try to look at the beautiful blessing that she’s here with us, she’s beautiful, she’s thriving, she’s growing, and she’s not effected by this mistake in any way…. but there was a good 5 minutes of my life that I thought my daughter was dead. There was a moment in my life where I heard codes being called on her in the hospital and doctors and nurses rushing in ~ and all I could do was drop my head and pray like I have NEVER prayed in my entire life. In my head she was gone… and I truly didn’t know how I was going to go on. I didn’t know how I was going to get out of bed every day. I didn’t know how I was going to go on without seeing her beautiful smile that literally melts every ounce of my soul.
How could I survive without this face
I have to forgive myself for this. I have to take it as a lesson learned that they do climb, and all it takes is literally 2 seconds of your back being turned for a life altering disaster to happen.
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